I hate when people talk about committing suicide.
If you know me in real life, you can tell. It’s not funny. This isn’t a fucking joke. What are you trying to do? Are you trying to get attention? If you’re serious about it, I bet you that the reasons for killing yourself aren’t good enough to back up your actions. Your life probably isn’t even bad. You’re a teenager. Stop acting like you know everything. You don’t know the meaning of depression.
I know a handful of people who’ve committed suicide already. I’ve had a handful of very close friends who have killed themselves for multiple reasons. Jealousy. Anger. False depression. Relationships. School. Stress. Friends. Even because of me,unconsciously.
Please don’t kill yourself because of the little things. It’s really dumb. What will your parents do? They’ll never forgive and put all of the blame on themselves for not caring enough, not knowing more about you, not seeing the warning signs, and not being good enough. How will your grandparents feel about the loss of their grandchild? How about your cousins? Your second cousins? Your uncles and aunts? Your nieces and nephews? How about your siblings? How about your friends? They’ll cry. They’ll be sad that you’ll never go to their house anymore, never play games with them, never eat with them, never hang out, never see your smile, never hear you laugh, and never hear words come out of your mouth, because you’re gone. Gone. Gone. Gone. Gone. Gone. What about the people at school? They’ll feel sad because they never got to know you; they never got to learn about you, and now they’ll never get the chance. Ever. Because you made the stupid mistaking of killing yourself. The teachers too. They’ll feel like they didn’t make the school environment safe enough for you. They’ll feel like they hadn’t done their job correctly. Everyone will wonder about you. They’ll wonder about why you did what you have done. They’ll wonder about everything related to you. When they hear about people committing suicide on the television, in the newspaper, or whatever, they’ll think about you. They’ll think about how they could have saved you. If they had known, they could have stopped you. They could have done something. There will only be photos and videos to remember you by. All of your belongings, all of your possessions… Everything will stay in the same spot, untouched. Your home will be missing someone. It’ll feel emptier. All of your classes at school will be occupied by one person less. And everyone will feel all of these negative emotions because of you. Would this make you feel proud? There’s no coming back. This isn’t a video game. You can’t come back to life. Once you die, you’re gone. Forever.
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I love laying down on the field at the park whenever it’s sunny. It makes me feel happy. I don’t think about anything except good thoughts.
Be sunny more often please. I love this weather so much. And summer is just around the corner. Gahh. I can’t wait.
I am so lucky to have you.
Sometimes I feel like you’re not being honest with me.
Lying is THE biggest pet peeve I have. It’s alright to joke around and lie about little things, but when I’m being serious with you, it’s a totally different story. I have always had major trust issues. Whenever I figure out somebody lied to me about something, most if not all my trust in them disappears. How do I know you’re not lying about anything else? How do I know you’re not going to lie to me again in the future? What if everything you’ve told me was all a lie?
Yesterday was such a great day.
- There was a party at my friend’s house and all of the parents left.
- Learned how to play “What Makes You Beautiful” on the guitar.
- Had some delicious food.
- Hung out with Jason, Austin, Moira, Christine, Noah, and then these two girls appeared. I only remember one of their names and I feel so bad LOL. The girl in the yellow shirt was Jasmine. When they came upstairs to Jason’s room, it was so awk. We had no idea what to talk about at first.
- Went to the park and talked.
- Went back early with Christine and we sang some karaoke.
- Everyone else came back and they sang.
- Christine and I talked about relationships and ways to ask people out to prom/dances. I learned so much about her today.
- Everybody else joined in.
- Jasmine and I sang a duet lol. She told me I sang good for a guy. It made me happy LOOOL. HER VOICE IS SO GOOOOD. ASDFHUASDJFHASDJFH
- The two girls left and then Robin came home from work!
- He can drive now so he brought me to QFC and we got drinks.
- We talked about how Austin was trying to get at the girls. haha
- Sang more karaoke.
- More karaoke.
- Even more karaoke.
- Still more karaoke.
- Listened to music.
- The parents came back and I went home at around 3ish in the morning.
